Trying Not to Blink

I am trying not to blink. I can't believe my baby will be 6 weeks old in a few days...where has it gone? I know I'm going to be saying this again in 2 weeks...2 months...2 years....such a cliche. In an effort not to miss a thing I'm going to be daily attempting to document Mateo's sweet face through my terrible photography. I thought today would be a good day to start, seeing as it is the very first day Mateo and I have been all alone since his birth. I managed to get...a few things done. I've learned that any time he's sleeping (not in my arms) I need to do two things: go to the bathroom and refill my water bottle. Because before I know it he's up again, refusing to be put down, or I'm nursing and dying for water. The house is...lonely without visitors and Justin, but I try to focus on making Mateo smile, sleeping, and attempting to do things on my list like take a shower and cook food. I worry Mateo misses all the activity so I talk to him, read aloud, put Justin on speakerphone when he calls...I think he's going to be a very social baby. Which means I may be forced to be more social in turn...

On Monday I was a bad mommy and didn't do anything to mark Mateo's first Halloween. I half looked around for a costume but they were all too big on him...so I dressed him in an orange onesie and called it a day. I insisted Justin stopped at CVS so I could run in to buy candy for the trick-or-treaters, but Justin said he'd do it...10 minutes later he came out with 5 bags of candy. Um, what? I was going to buy one bag of Kit-Kats and call it day. I don't know what came over him, especially since he insisted we weren't going to get any trick-or-treaters. Which he was right, we didn't. So sad...someday we will live somewhere trick-or-treaters go. Someday. Now we have 5 bags worth of candy sitting in a ziploc bag on the top shelf of the pantry where I keep hoping I'll forget about it. This is not good news for my get back into shape plan. Today I was going to start Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred but instead I ate more candy than I wish to admit. I realize this might be bad news for Mateo, so I'm hoping I'll have some self-control for his sake. The kid already took coffee away from me, I can sacrifice sugar, too. Yes, I can.

This will never be a photography blog. There will be lots of blurry faces, shiny faces, shadows and colors far from their true hues. I have no talent for taking pictures and am usually the girl saying, "Man, I wish I'd thought to take a picture of that!" But I can't let these precious days go by without having something to remember them by. And I know that at least Mom will appreciate my efforts :).

Mateo started to really smile a lot this past weekend...true smiles and grins that display his adorable dimple and make every tired moment worth it. I've had a hard time capturing his smiles but these pictures hint at the real thing...

I'm only posting one picture per day to the blog, if there's a flickr link below the picture follow it to see more...

http://www.flickr.com/photos/48638346@N07/sets/72157627916009265/